Don't Forget

I think it's funny how the day after my bestfriend puts this as the title of her blog, I discovered this brilliant song by Demi Lovato. I hadn't even read my Amy's blog yet. Idk though, if this song came out a while ago, it woulda been perfect for me. Although it's still is perfect. I'm still not quite done.

So I haven't written anything in a while. But I guess it's cause my life is so craaazy. Way too much stuff to do and way too much college stuff on my mind. Best part of all, it's not even senior year yet. I'm getting really tired of having to be an over-achiever just to have a nice college resume. It makes me wonder how much I actually don't have to try & I'd still get in. Oh well, I don't think I can ever settle for that cause then I'd be too scared that I wouldn't get in anywhere. Stupid over-achieverness. I don't even want to imagine how first semester senior year is gonna go. Classes: AP Calc AB, Stats, AP Lit, CWI/World Religions (divided by semseters), AP Bio, Honors Physics, REGULAR U.S. Gov. Whooo, regular. Hahaha. But gahhh, I'm gonna wanna kill myself cause I know I can't handle this schedule + dance & yearbook (and more), along with college apps. Idkk, this scares me. Guess I just gotta get a head start this summer? But when this summer?! My whole week from mid-June to almost mid-August is jam-packed. Trig class from around 10:00am-12:00pm every day, then off to my afternoon internship (assuming I do get that internship. Which reminds me, I gotta apply for other ones in case I don't...). Then I also gotta volunteer at a hospital sometime this summer and go back to volunteer at JPC. Plussss, I gotta tutor myself in prep-calc this summer & also prep for the SAT Math II subject test, annnnd still do the crapload amount of AP Bio&Honors Physics summer homework, along with reading all the summer reading books. Yeahh... I say I'm getting too Asian for my own good. This sucks. And what scares me the most- none of this will pay off in the end. I swear, this BETTER pay off.

This is way past overload. I need to step back, dude.

What also annoys me. Other people who don't try or care about any of this stuf or their future. They need to learn to start looking these things up or at least listen to me when I'm trying to help them. I work hard. I put in the effort. And what do they get? Credit for everything I've done. God, my life is annoying.

IT'S SO WINDY OUTSIDE! I hate the wind. More than I hate that rain. My hair+the wind = bad stuff. Haha.

I need better time management.

So this past week I just went through a time where a million random people started talking to me again. Weird. These people include C, L, A, &S. Only first initial shown for vague reasons. Idk, I think Amy can guess all of these.

Honestly? I don't want to say yes. I just don't want to go. It's just a bit...yeah. Idk, maybe I should ask Greg about this, haha. What a random way to start talking to him again.

I got a new phone! Whooo. Full QWERTY keyboard finally. Did you know I didn't know why QWERTY keyboards were called that until a few months ago?! Yeah, I'm lame.

<3

"So now I guess,
This is where we have to stand.
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand?
Never again.
Please don't forget,
Don't forget"