So thisit.

"This is it." For all of you who don't shop at Macy's, haha.

Halfway through junior yearrrr. OHMYGOD. THREE MORE SEMESTERS. Seriously can't wait. CLASS OF 2010. I hate my school & pretty much everything about it. Not kidding. Can't waiiiiit for college! Gonna be a friggin partyyyy every week fasho. :]

Happy 2009! Not to say that my 2009 is starting out well, anyway. Hella behind on homework and idk, I just feel like something is missing. I know what it is, too. I can't stand this all-girls thing. I'm dying & I need to get out. New year? Gimme a fucken LEAP year.

Where is my Jason?

Okay, okay fine. I'll admit junior year is kinda sorta alright, too. Beyoooooond stressed&burned out though. Thank god for free period this semester. &You know how they said that junior year is the year you find who your true friends are? Yeah, they weren't lying. I mean, I'll admit I thought it was a bunch of BS, but I guess they were right. This year, I have found my close friends at school; but they'll neverrrr everrrr replace my original besties fashizzz. You know who you are. Haha.

So it's pretty bad, still. If you look back at my "I wish" blog, or whatever it was titled, I'm still in the mode..just maybe not as depressing. But I want sooo much for things to go back, so I can make them actually work this time. I'm mad at what I lost, & even though I know I'm supposed to take a "lesson" outta it to make it a positive situation, I want more than that. I want you.

&To make THAT worse, all of YOU change your fb statuses. How does that happen to me? Four months after I meet you, you find that one. I feel like Goodluck Chuck- without the fucking&penis of course.

Hi, MH, stop annoying me you jackass. You've become a jerk after graduation & I don't wanna talk to you anymore. Got it?

Did I mention I'm friggin IN LOVE with this kid I'll refer to as JG? Haha, not at all. Stupid shit, things change too much. But I will admit I love 'em cause I realized that I needed to take that break & look at the positive more. So thank you so much for that. You have no idea & it's kinda sad how you never will.

Bad influences? Yeah, it's kinda a shame. Since I'm caving into them.

Drama regarding that STUFF everyone found out about. Changed a lot. I figured out I did it only to prove to people I can. Bad? Yes. Did I learn anything? Yep. Will it change anything? Unfortunately, no. I still want more. &It's kinda funny cause I only want to prove this stuff to people. Whatevs.

Texting to the max. I am a chronic texter, but I've cut back by about 4,000 texts now. Yay me!

I miss my JAT freak show, my SEI crew, my SES summer, DA+reunion, my BBBFpartnuhh who wants a BLUEberry for college, and life. Junior year+2 annoying APs+dance 24/7 = lack of social life x144589402930. I'm dead serious when I say I don't have one. You hear those girls always saying lack of guys at school is no problem? Yeah, those are the girls who don't work hard academically. Orally, that's another story.

Oh yeah, mutherfucken MT better listen to me this year. Reminder to remind her to make it one of her resolutions.

Merry belated Christmas. How was yours? I love making money for just being a kid on December 25th, haha.

Ohyeah, I gotta agree with A, Taylor Swift is the shit.

Kbye for now!
Ily whoever reads this.