100th post

LIFE.
Or that's what they call it anyway. One simple word for something that means so much more than that. Why does it have to be so complicated and why do people have to make it hard for everyone else? Over these past few days --and weeks, actually-- life hasn't been a piece of cake. I know it's not supposed to be, so why should I be complaining, right? The answer's because it doesn't have to be this way. But every night and from everything that's happened that day, I go to sleep feeling different every single time. And it just so happens that I don't like it that way. It just makes me more confused on what I think and what I want. I sit there wondering whether or not I'm making the right decision for the situations. Then I also sit there having to deal with what everyone else wants from me. They want my phone calls, my help, my support, my attention, my time --all of it. It's like I have to be there 100% for everyone or else they'd get mad at me and call me a bad friend. The more things they want from me, the less time I have for others... and eventually that person themself. So when I don't have the time for ME anymore & people still want more from me, why should I give it to them when I don't even have any of my shit done? Then I explain to them, and they assume I'm being flaky. Call me a bad friend for giving all my other time to you in the first place. And it's not like I have a choice to say no alotta these times. Everything is pretty much a demand from these people. To make it worse, the people I want to talk to the most can never be there anymore --physically&emotionally. (Emotionally? Does that make sense? Why does that sound reallyyyy weird?) So in the words of Mr. Vo, "THAS LIFE. DEAL WIF IT."


&That is life.
So live it out & find a way to work it out.


*Oh, &then you fall in love with your bestfriend and can't get yourself off the ground.
[P.S. I'm still not over you.mp3] Two years. It can be no other way.