Almost There

I swear, these past few months have brought me some of the worst and best moments of my life. But no matter if these experiences were good or bad, I really do feel that everything helped me in a good way, nothing bad. I know it sounds like those things where people say "Only good can come of the bad" or "Make the best of the situation", & I hate to say they're exactly right. I don't like it when my life applies directly to these sayings because these sayings aren't how I live my life. I live in my own way, however I want.

That's not the point though.

What I'm saying is that I think these past few months have been the greatest times I've ever gone through. I've had two huge fights with two bestfriends, & I'm not going to say what the results of one of them are, but I can tell you that the first fight has only brought us a lot closer. &The other fight has really developed my common sense & judgment. That's all I'm saying. I'm happy with the outcome of both of these fights and am so thankful that it is what it is. Make sense? Haha, didn't think so. Spring Day at school was where I learned to take those damn chances, & I'm glad I did because now I take those chances every time I can. Sure, I don't always get what I want, but at least I know what did happen because I did carpe diem. Haha. Up until then, I really did consider Spring Day (5.2.08) the best day ever, & then 6.12.08 happened. Aha. I don't feel the need to write out what it was or what occurred then, but let's just say that I'm glad Monica was there & that she had yelled at me before & that I finally let myself go. Then three days later, I had no idea I was about to get into the most awesome two weeks ever. I found I could be who I was & that people still really do like me. Before, I used to just kinda stay on the sidelines, like I talked to everyone, but not really at the same time. Idk, the last two weeks of June '08 were just the best & I'm pretty sure words can never describe what I felt there. It would take way too long to write, and I don't really have the time right now. Haha.

What do I mean in the title, "Almost There"? That's a good question that I'll answer now. What I mean is that I'm almost there with this awesome summer & with being open & being loud & who I want to be. I'm almost there in completing who I am & what I want to do. I'm almost there with not worrying about what others think. I'm almost there, & I'm happy with my progress. I don't feel I need to speed it up or slow anything down. I like the way my life is going right now, & I wouldn't trade it for the world. (:

So far, this summer has kicked ass (lol) & I can't wait for what's to come. I have a bunch of more people to meet in these other summer programs I'm going to, & after SEI, I'm excited for anything new. The only thing I'm uber worried about is how I'm going to finish all the AP Chem homework & study it so I can ace that test we have the first day we get back, &I'm also worried about the summer reading. Wish me luck. Haha.

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